INSOMNIA...

3am...still awake doing nothing

it seems everyday i dun wanna shut my eyes
afraid that if i go 2 sleep, i will lose another day
i want time to run slow
i want the world to wait for me
cos i'm stuck...i need time to move on but ur not waiting for me!

but i know it won't happen n naively i stay awake
accompanying darkness believing that time is being drag behind

i dun like the "me" now...its lost, confused, dazed, naive, illogical, hesistant
y am i not moving...wut am i waiting for or fear for?
not prepare to step into da real world? not ready to be an adult?
yes, i'm escaping from my problems by slacking off
i wanna just give up, do nothing, dun wanna be stuck in da life cycle, dun wanna be a replica of "human"
i wanna magically skip the stages of living to death...it would be easier

being human is tiring...reminds me of math, why do we have to show our steps to get to the solution. Y can't we just list the solution..hell y do we need math. Y do we have to walk all stages of the life before we die. Y do we need a life or be human?

going to sleep, i want to be crazy but the world is sane...